Hi Beau!
Initially I was rather lazy to write about the year 2019 recap as I did last year. But after I reread them, it was quite fun if i flashbacked a bit, walking down a memory lane about how i felt last year. So here we are now trying to sum all of 2019 into one post.
baca juga : Recap 2018
baca juga : Recap 2018
Like I've stated in last year's post, i started 2018 with a little spirit because the end of 2018 was so mellow for me. I learned so much in 2018 and turned out 2019 is no different except it has more fun, challenges and excitement.
I got more responsibilities at work which gave me more validations and fulfillment. Of course it came with its own battle, because now my scoop of work includes more high level people, hence the difficulties but i come to manage.
I'm
also into upgrading my skills and started to think of taking classes.
Maybe a writing class, continue to learn french and a certification related to my field of work.
But, the one important lesson 2019 has thought me : Negotiation. How much you're willing to compromise yourself to other people's need, and vice versa. Life's pretty much how to balance those needs and compromises.
Turns out the more you understand your value, your core, your needs
and the more you're able to speak up, people will put more respect on
you. Now that i understand better, i no longer feel sappy when an event occur doesn't do me any favor. Somewhat everything will slowly turned your way, you just have to know how to response the right way. And when you learn how to speak those values up, you learn how to negotiate. You'll learn how to balance things.
Isn't it funny how you seek for validations from other people your whole life, while the only person you should've listen to is yourself? I learned this in late 2018 and tried to apply those values in 2019. It is easier to make decisions when you understand your core. I'll take notes to that.
I think 2018 and 2019 has prepared me for what's coming in 2020. I'm really looking forward to this year, as i believe i will be growing towards a more positive direction. I do believe so, because if i take a look on a decade behind i see myself being resilient, consistent, strong headed sometimes, a bit of anxious & insecure -sure, but i think the last two i mentioned were washed away last year. And look at where i am now. I pretty much deserve to pat myself in the back, not for what I've achieved but for fighting for myself. Acceptance & Self Reliant felt good so I'm gonna stick to that.
Now, beside self improvement, i also got a chance to travel to two of my bucket list destinations: Kawah Ijen Banyuwangi (baca disini) & Komodo Island. Haven't been able to write about Komodo Trip but surely will do! I'm really grateful to be able to witness the beauty of nature. Going places is definitely one of the things I'm attracted to so definitely gonna continue to do that, if i get the chance to. In the mean time, here's a picture of little heaven on earth called Komodo Island . Hope i got time to write soon!
Shit happened, but that's how life forces you to grow,
may we all grow towards the light
XOXO
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